Blocked. Insecure. Uninspired.
How I have felt over the past few weeks.
While traveling abroad, I yearned for time to paint.
And yet, when I finally returned home and sat down in front of my easel, I could not put pastel to paper.
Doubt clouded my thoughts, blocked my creativity, darkened my mood.
I questioned myself and my capabilities as an artist. Do I “fit” into the New York art scene? Is there a place for my work in the contemporary market? Am I good enough?
After much reflection, I realize that the only way to unblock myself and move forward as an artist in general is to stay true to my instincts.
To stick it out. To fully experience doubt and excitement and inspiration – these feeling are all part of the artistic process. To forgive myself when I feel I have failed. To allow myself to practice – not every painting or drawing needs to be a masterpiece.
It is time to get back to the basics.
To break down my subject :
1. See the light and the shadow.
2. Color. Layer. Illuminate.
3. Make magic.
To just paint. To just do.